Love After All, Matters the Most.

I'm having one of those days, I'm missing my husband  a lot. I came across a song that we played in our wedding, Captivate Us by Watermark, one of my all time favorites. So I decided to revisit all of our music. Well, not a good idea when you're already missing your husband a lot. This opened the flood gates today.

There are days when I can get down about the job market for teachers right now, I don't know what my future holds for the next four months regarding the job situation. But I was talking to one of my best girlfriends on the phone this week and she really put things into perspective for me. She said that I may not have a job and she may not love her job but we have something that a lot of people don't have, our true love, husbands that love us more than anything. This is something that I have often thought about. I remember when all I cared about was finding the one, I wanted to be in love and married more than anything. More than finding a job that I enjoyed, more than having friends, this is literally all I thought about.

I am so blessed by this man that I get to call my husband, the love of my life, the future father of my children, the one that I have waited my entire life for. Like the song, love after all, does matter the most.  He has brought so much joy into my life. I did not know it was possible to be this happy and in love.

I remember when David and I were dating, I was on this incredible high all the time. My girlfriend, Ashlee, would probably tell you the same thing. She laughed at me all the time because I was just silly in love. I always wondered, how do you know when you find the one? Well, ten days after David and I started talking, I knew. He. Was. It. He was different. He was what I had always pictured and hoped for my future. I'm not going to go on about all of his amazing qualities because that would take forever. I will just say he had the makings of the perfect man, husband and father. I fell head over heels for him. I'm still head over heels for him and I know that feeling will just grow stronger as our lives together grow longer.

I can't worry about what I don't have right now. I know I am grateful for what I do have. My husband, my love. He is all that I need...and of course our loving Lord in Heaven, who made all of my dreams come true. It is Him who I truly thank for all of my blessings. He led my life to David and I know by remaining faithful that He will lead my life where it needs to go, He will show me the way.

I must say that the women that have husbands over seas are stronger women than I could ever be. But I might be surprised if I was ever put in that situation. I at least get to see David on the weekends and I am so thankful for that.

My love, that matters the most......

I love you, David Jeffrey Clark.